Death

Death…

Most people fear death, as a person who has seen more death than most, under different circumstances. Death is an ugly business. With all the death I’ve seen and the different experiences of death I’ve been exposed to I no longer fear death. To me death is release from this restrictive physical vehicle to free the soul and allow it to move pain free and flow with the energy of the universe. Having had a near death experience as a teenager. Then having spent 20 years as a first responder and observing all different kinds of deaths from accidents, murders to suicides. I’ve seen the ugly up close and personal. This last week, I had to make the decision to end the life of a beautiful soul of a puppy that was suffering. I looked deep into the eyes of this beautiful soul as she faded from this existence and was freed from her suffering. I then buried her under our Catalpa tree with all of our other expired souls. The week ended with a celebration of life of a good friend. Keeping calm energy for the family to express their sorrows and say good bye to a loved one as they scattered the ashes.

I’ve been out of this physical vehicle many times, enough to realize there is more to this physical reality than this restrictive physical vehicle. Upon returning to this vehicle every time it’s like having to fit into a cold wet suit that is about 3 sizes too small.

Don’t get me wrong, having a physical vehicle and living life is such a blessing. To be able to see God with every cloud in the sky, every tree in the forest and as every wave crashes on the beach. We are so blessed to have the opportunity to experience this beauty.

I had the blessing of showing my granddaughter one of my hobbies, videotaping the sunset into the ocean. It’s a rare day when the weather is so clear you are allowed to actually see the crescent of the sun as it touches the horizon on the ocean. Usually there is a bit of a marine layer way out at sea that obscures the actual moment when the sun kisses the ocean. In the 5 days we were able to go see the sunset we had one day where we were blessed to witness that moment.

So to live your life to the fullest while you are here is a blessing because we are all here for just a blink of the eye when compared to the existence of the measurement of experience called time. Even when everything is going wrong for you that day when nothing is working as you expected and all you can see is the failures ahead. That day too is a blessing, because once that day is done and you learn the lessons from that experience. It can move you to see the blessings in every day. There are many if you choose to have the thought process and mind set to see them. That is where happiness lies.

Being a first responder, it was my job to hide the ugly side of death from the masses. But what strikes me as curious is how people will react. On the side of the highway on a fatal accident, we hide the fatality behind flashing lights of big fire engines, ambulances, and police cars. We cover the bodies with a covering and move them out of the way. Yet almost every car crawls by with every head inside wrenched to the side trying to get a glimpse of the ugly. As if by seeing someone else that has expired their time ticket for this life will somehow add moments to theirs.

I’ve prayed and sent little souls off that had their time ticket expire way too soon. Praying to the one creator to comfort this beautiful innocent soul and the family it has just left behind. Knowing in that moment in time. That was all that could be done.

I have had the unique experience of bringing a family member back from a stopped heart. Most people don’t have a clue of what that means. Some say the act is heroic, some of the family say they were blessed that I had been there at the time. Hind sight is 20/20. Looking back I see it from a much different perspective. I see it as playing God and doing a miserable job at it. The medical establishment after the person recovered had them on so many medications their quality of life afterword was in my opinion very poor and looking back they would have been better off if I wasn’t there. But that isn’t or wasn’t my choice. So I did what I was trained to do. I guess the lesson to this diatribe of jumbled thoughts, is to focus your energy on the blessings that this physical life provides you. There are many lessons in the blessings and energy flows where your focus goes. So keep your focus on how blessed you are. Each breath you take is blessed by the one creator of the original thought….. Peace…